What I pretend to be........

Trying to be tough, rough and loud.




Trying to be happy and gay when you’re around……….



Camouflaging my burnt-self with my don’t care attitude,



Laughing it all out when deep inside I’m all blues.



But for you I gotta be like this,



And you know me now as I pretend to be.







Jumping around and being an all-out selfish,



Acting like an atheist, calling every bit of my life a beautiful bitch…



You’re seeing an unlikable side of me that I’m forced to take,



Swearing loudly and all time saying aloud- Hey Man!!!!!!!!



Trying to be a rebellion and rebelling I am,



Fighting off my broken heart’s stupid pains…..







Lost I am and I don’t know if I’ll ever find my way back.



Never thought I would be trying to live like Joan Jett.



I live my life in a way now, making you hate me more…



Making you say “Go to hell!” and “Leave me alone!”



Assuring you that you’ve taken the right decision,



And thus using more crude words I sing along this song……….







But late night this hard core shell sheds off,



Making me wake up every morning feeling so hollow,



I wish I could stop these tears from wetting my pillow.



This weakling in me is making me act so shallow,



This one feeling is impeding my learning to live a life without you,



Making it hard for me to accept this undeniable truth…..







I know there’s no way you’re returning,



So hate me more for being this bad-reputed me.



Know as the most arrogant and selfish bitch.



Because now I am what I pretend to be….