On A Rainy Winter Morning......

The wet silence engulfs my weeping soul,
Here I am, counting down the days since you've been gone....
They say that one day your heart will stop bleeding.
Bleeding my heart is; but my soul too has split...
All those scars that you've embedded on my inner-self,
On a rainy winter morning, I\m still running in circles, trying to escape.....

It's been a long time and yet tears still pour out of my eyes,
Like a burning cigarette, I'm meant to end and yet I'm still so alive.....
Like a torn, crumpled paper, I'm waiting to be either thrown away,
Or to be picked up and recycled and begin a new day......
Waiting for a new beginning with a happy ending,
Here I am, sitting by my window, sipping on a cup of coffee on a rainy winter morning....

Life is beautiful, so they say....
But why has it become so ugly today?
And I'm exhausted from wearing this mask of oblivion....
Pretending to be numb when I feel too much.
I'm not alone and yet, I feel so lonely....
Like some estranged character, who doesn't fir into anybody's story.
Surrounded by a known crowd and yet I'm a stranger,
I cry to me on a rainy morning of a lonesome winter......

How far do I need to walk before I know what I'm meant to be?
How deep do I need to shed my soul before I'm set free?
How much more do I need to bleed before I become comfortably numb?
How many more scars do I need to carve on my skin before I come undone?
How many times more do I need to die, before I start feeling alive?
How much more do I need to lose before I become a completely broken lie?

I fear not that I will die one day....
I fear that when I'm gone, I'll leave behind no trace.
I fear that before I die, I'll be someone who just existed,
I fear that I won't be someone who lived and still is breathing in her death.....
So many fears, so many tears and so many questions......all in my meddled feelings.
It's too much too deal now, and so I drench myself in rain and hope, on a rainy winter morning.........

INSIDUOUS FATE

When u think u've evrything u need,


Right at the moment fate betrays u nd ur belief.

Leavin' u obfuscated with a broken heart,

And u wonder why did ur world suddenly fall apart.



Just when u think u've found ur real friends,

They leave u, breakin' ur heart at that very moment.

U feel betrayed and start cursin' ur insidiuous fate

U cry a river, pity urself nd start ur life over again.



Just when u think ur world is finally shinning incandescently

Fate twists his finger nd suddenly ur world starts raining,

The black cloud constantly hovers over ur head,

And u wonder why were u gifted with such a hapless fate.



Just when u think that peace has finally been bestowed, A war breaks out somewhere in the dark road.

Soon the world is overflowed with hatred, revenge and thirst for bloodshed.

And u kneel down to pray to ur Lord to take a seroius step.



When u finally concede to urself

That u've found love nd u know the way to happiness

SUDDENLY LOVE FLEES ND LEAVES U IN AN ABYSMAL STATE

And u cry a river, thinkin' this will help ur pains to abate.



U finally infer that afte is insidious and it takes delight in ur demise...

learn to live on

As soon as u entered my small world,


U illuminated everything nd then vanquished my heart,

And the moment I finally decided to make u forever mine,

That was when I lost u for the rest of my life.

That was the moment when sorrows nd pain eclipsed all my happiness,

And from then on every other aspects of my life felt meaningless.



Now a black cloud hovers above my once clear azzure sky,

And it seems that everythin' around me have entered the phase of twilight,

When it rains, it feels like the sky is cryin' with me,

Every aspects of nature seems to be asking me to find a new way to live.

But nothin' seems to be able to alleviate my pains,

Neither the sweet fragments of roses, nor the shower of rain.



But I want to be emancipated from this hopless state,

I hate to drown in sorrows, I want to break away

Albeit I know that a life without you is like an empty shell,

And I know that to go on, I must let go of myself,

But losing myself is not a great loss for me,

Cuz I've already lost u- my only destiny.



The dawn is breaking nd my turtle-dove is singing,

And it feels like she's giving a new sound to my feeling,

Her sweet song seems to be filling me up with some strength,

The strength to stand up to face th lonely world nd never fall again.



But that doesn't mean that I'll ever stop loving u,

Cuz I can never love again the way I loved you,

But as the swan song will not reach my ears for a long time.

So I must be brave to carry on with my meaningless life.



And I don't need anything else to stop feeling lonely,

Cuz at night, ur memories will keep me company.

And in the morning, work and friends will keep me busy.



Slowly nd steadily this helplessness within me will soon be gone

And I'll learn to live on....

A PRAYER

Oh Lord, Give me the strength to stand firm on the ground when all the forces of nature goes against me.


Give me the heart that will never break apart even if love goes against me.

Give me the mind that can fight my weakness and concentrate more on developing my soul,

Give me the willpower to carry on with my dreams and fight all the obstacles to reach my goal.

Oh Lord, Give me the eyes that will not let tears flow in front of others so that I can hide my Achille's heels,

Give me the ears that will ignore anything aimed to crumple my confidence but will not be deaf to inhumane injustice.

Give me a place where I can safely lock up my sweet memories,

And teach me the words that will touch millions of hearts strongly.

And I pray to You, to give me the power to make this world a better place,

And to give me Hope to work harder to replace all the haterd, wars and sorrows with love, friendship and eternal happiness.....

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

Just like the deep blue ocean is my life,



I know that you can just see water all the time.



The reflected blue bed camouflages the inner beauty,



Hiding the colorful world full of equanimity.



Each wave brings in a new aspect of life.



Storms occur on the surface but underneath lies,



Enigmatic beauties, astounding secrets and esoteric concoction of discrete emotions.



The only way to fathom this life is to explore the deep floors of this beautiful ocean



















Life is Extremely beautiful,



Close your eyes and feel the exotic blue.



Feel the innocence, the love and friendship/



Sing the song with true feelings,



And just dance and dance, dance in the rain,



Relinquish all your sorrows and pains.







Wake up and watch the luminous sky,



Watch the golden rays scatter through your life.



Let the warmth of the morning rejuvenate your soul,



And efface your fears, make you feel bold,



Placate your ears; assuage your heart.



After all life is beautiful like the deep blue ocean,



You just have to treat it with yor authentic devotions

WHY DO PEOPLE DREAM?

With tears in her eyes, she asked me once upon a time,


"Why do people dream, when they know that dreams shatter?"

I wandered around, talked to many, observed the aspects of life,

And I found the answer after walking a thousand miles.



Dreams keep the hope in us alive,

Dreams give us the strength to carry on with our life.

People dream to escape the painful reality,

Their dreamland provides them with a peaceful sanctuary,

So they dream even though they know that shattters,

To them, escaping reality is all that matters.









I have a dream, you have a dream,

In the deepest part of our heart we all harbor a beautiful dream.

We dream peace, we dream to climb the ladder of success,

And those dreams make us determined to pursue the path os knowledge.

They say that a man without a dream is like an empty shell,

So I urge the dwellers of earth to dream if you want to live well.

Iask you all to dream a beautiful dream,

A dream where no hatred, jealousy or war exists,

but love, friendship and eternal peace.



And to my friend I'll just say one thing,

Go to bed tonight and dream whatever you feel.

I promise you, that in the morning you'll feel happy, you'll again feel like living.

And then you'll realize why do people still dream...

THAT VOICE

There's this one old song I need to remember,



There's one word that comes after the cold december.



I can't forever stare at this blank paper,



I nedd to write the song that'll touch everyone forever.



But my imaginations can't penetrate much further.



'Cause a voice is haunting me, singing to me forever....







The numbness is settling within me again,



And that mellifluous voice is showering me with rain...



My old guitar tries to tune an old song for my solace,



But the words keep on evading me, leaving without a trace.



That voice.....I need to know who's voice is that,



That voice..... I need to be emancipated from it.

































There are a thousand different ways to fall in love,



But only one way to lose your heart.



The flame of hope will never let you have enough,



It'll flicker back and forth till you say the word.



And I need to remember that old song that made me fall in love



I gotta find that voice that touched my doleful heart.....